Monday, November 25, 2013
As well as a number of events, everyone's B-day, all the holidays, this time of year used to be crazy. That's was when we were pretty well off, and everyone thought they "deserved" the royal treatment. These days.....LOL.....that's is just not the case. I only realized that this was even thanksgiving week, about 4 hours ago. To tell you the truth, I couldnt give a rats ass either way. The only thing I care about is keeping my house, and working. Nothing else really matters.
We were able to rent out the house in the city this weekend. It's been four months with no income on that house, and we lost about 5k farting around. That and working non stop everyday, for 45 days with a new customer. In the end, if I can hit December with the mortgauges paid and no court dates being served, I'm good to go. It quite simple.
Ive also had luck with promoting some of my craft sales on the net. Made some great money this month. My main goal is to keep that action going . Its totally possible. Just a matter of doing it.
Have not written in a while, just thought I'd drop some news out there. Here are some odd thoughts i've been thinking about.
We were able to rent out the house in the city this weekend. It's been four months with no income on that house, and we lost about 5k farting around. That and working non stop everyday, for 45 days with a new customer. In the end, if I can hit December with the mortgauges paid and no court dates being served, I'm good to go. It quite simple.
Ive also had luck with promoting some of my craft sales on the net. Made some great money this month. My main goal is to keep that action going . Its totally possible. Just a matter of doing it.
Have not written in a while, just thought I'd drop some news out there. Here are some odd thoughts i've been thinking about.
- I never thought I'd be actively seeking ski masks, but now that I am, I find their repetitively cheap pricing across the board compared to hats, interesting.
- I dont remember 19 degrees freezing everything so quickly....now that my job is to keep things un frozen.
- People will always leave me a sofa.....every year of my life, there will be a sofa I have to deal with
- Female dogs are the most protective, but male dogs, "puppies", are truly the only animals that will follow you without question.
- Never order seafood, "seafood anything", at a place where the bar staff is in charge of the lunch crowd and the kitchen, from the bar.
- facebook rots your brain
- ipad and iphone are the best products on the market, but the google nexus 7 for the money is the best overall tablet, hands down.
- I used to say, "I dont care if it snows, as long as it's alot" Now I say, "I hope it only snows 3/4 of an inch all over central PA and that the temperature stays cold till I can get to all the driveways in time to get paid."
Sunday, November 17, 2013
Saturday, October 26, 2013
Monday, October 21, 2013
I am beat up tired. Been working a lot of hours. Sometimes for good money, sometimes for ok money. I have not seen any of it, too busy working it. My bills are pilling up, and I'm just working non stop in the hopes that in time, I will make more than the amount of the bills. Some way to be eh? Ive got to eat better if i'm going to keep this pace. and I have to get back to kung fu. My body is getting the work out, but I need the other side, the balence and the pain to make the things that hurt all the time hurt less.
Winter is coming. I have never been as not ready as I am now. I have to rent the house in Harrisburg and I do not have any time to put into it. I've been working seven days a week, that has to stop this week, I have to get the house ready this weekend to show, and the building rented!!!!! uggg. so important.
The furnace just fired for the first time this year this past evening. I'm tan from working outside all the time. I have to say, I like the way that I work. There is about 1000% room for improvement as I see myself messing up so many times throughout the day simply because I don't have thing organized, or planned out as well as they could be. Having said that, It proves that I know about it and have not done anything about it. I mean if I didn't know anything about it and was oblivious to the fact, you could say, well he didn't know. But.... that is not the case, I do know. I just forget to do it. Must make some lists for the jobs. Check lists. and we have to install quicken this week. I can't track the money without it.
Man I have a grizzly beard going on now. I have to tend to that as well. pickup is broken...broken ish. Have a real good bead on why and what, and how to fix it.....but, "time" is the resource that I'm short of. Time and money that is.
Ok, i had to write a bit. I miss this. I will figure out a way to do it again, maybe once a week.
The furnace just fired for the first time this year this past evening. I'm tan from working outside all the time. I have to say, I like the way that I work. There is about 1000% room for improvement as I see myself messing up so many times throughout the day simply because I don't have thing organized, or planned out as well as they could be. Having said that, It proves that I know about it and have not done anything about it. I mean if I didn't know anything about it and was oblivious to the fact, you could say, well he didn't know. But.... that is not the case, I do know. I just forget to do it. Must make some lists for the jobs. Check lists. and we have to install quicken this week. I can't track the money without it.
Man I have a grizzly beard going on now. I have to tend to that as well. pickup is broken...broken ish. Have a real good bead on why and what, and how to fix it.....but, "time" is the resource that I'm short of. Time and money that is.
Ok, i had to write a bit. I miss this. I will figure out a way to do it again, maybe once a week.
Saturday, September 28, 2013
A few days ago, an old friend I used to work with contacted me in an email. He commented on not being able to find me on Facebook or Linked In. I was kinda happy that I was not able to be found, although he must not have been looking very hard, as I can find myself in about 3 seconds, from anywhere on the internet. In this short section, I just wanted to comment on the newest of the stupid sites. "Linked-in" This site claims to be there for professionals to "network" themselves for the betterment of everyone's professional business path of glory. Now.... I can not tell you what the paid version is like, but I can tell you that the free version I'm looking at look a lot like myspace meets Match.com. The ads are just like facebook, gender orientated. Guys see ads with girls in them, Girls see ads with guys in them. All the BS "suggestions" are skewed to a 80/20 split. If you are a guy, "Linkedin" wants to help you make professional connections with 80% woman. If you are female, it's the opposite. The bogas recommendations mean nothing and are designed for one thing, to get you to fumble around on the site. They also want to broadcast every single mouse click to the world. Yes, if they had their way, they would even broadcast how long, and what your mouse passed over before you clicked to see how in the holy hell any of these people could have any degree of a connection with you. It's human curiosity to wonder what on earth this site is implying. It also like facebook has made opting out, impossible. I mean, I might have the time someday to find the off switch, but in doing so it would still send me emails everyday. And that is why facebook works.....works now anyway. It will soon die, to be sure. and I can not wait!!!!
So, enough of that BS. just another stupid BS site. designed to work using human nature to get in your head. My advise to anyone is to not let yourself be linked to anything on the net. I'm hoping that comet comes soon and takes out the grid, wipes out the internet. yay. people can make money and go back to work. Computers are not the future of business, computers are now the means to the end of commerce among humans on Earth. For every shopping cart you see this year, 100 people lost jobs somewhere last year.
Smart line:
So, enough of that BS. just another stupid BS site. designed to work using human nature to get in your head. My advise to anyone is to not let yourself be linked to anything on the net. I'm hoping that comet comes soon and takes out the grid, wipes out the internet. yay. people can make money and go back to work. Computers are not the future of business, computers are now the means to the end of commerce among humans on Earth. For every shopping cart you see this year, 100 people lost jobs somewhere last year.
Smart line:
- If you are asked to remove an AC unit from a window this week, ask how long it has been in the window before you say yes, or you will spent 400% more time than you think you will.
- If your house gets broken into, do not paste 8x11 white notebook paper on the doors warning the robbers that you are armed. The only thing that does is invite people to walk up and read your stupid message, or think it's a "house vacant" sign, and rob you again.
- In light of the non stop reality TV crazy the US has endured for the last 15 years, Breaking Bad is the best show written, watch the final show tonight, it will make you smarter.
Tuesday, September 24, 2013
As I sat there in the shower letting the hot water roll over my broken back...lol, I noticed my legs. Bone brusin, wrapped in scars and scabs. But one thing I kept noticing over all, in the last few years was that I keep screwing up the exact same points on my body. I don't notice it for day's, but then I will see where something hit me, or crashed into me, or I it...and bam.
It's been a challenging week. Many things went wrong, some went right. Over all, good growth week, but riddled with tests of will. Energy wise, I'm running lean, making it few to the end, but it's taxing. Man that truck is like riding in some kind of sick amusement park ride. All day, bouncing all over, you get in a normal car and you remember that driving shouldn't be exhausting. It's the local streets. They are horrible. When you spend all day driving the back streets of central PA, in a 1/2 ton with extra leaf springs, it is like a work out in a gym. I thought to myself mid week, "just because something is paved, does not make it a road. In some of these side streets, it's like they paved something right out of the woods. Take the intersection of Louther street and Hummel ave in lemoyne, pa. You know the light, right after the railroad tracks. In my truck, you would think you just bought a ride on the scrambler.
Thank god it's Friday I think....the national nightly news just came on, another bad day. Shootings.
Anyway I think I have an invention, along with my others. I really have to get these patented. So stupid not to.
Ok, Sally and Ava made cupcakes for nick, and our one dog, tor, will not stop trying to steal cupcakes. Unreal, complete anarchy.
Sold two great nunchaku last week, that was great, I want to sell more. I need to get my store seen by more people
The new iPhone , no way. My iPhone 4s is fine. It's too small, phones in general. My fingers are too fat to use a phone to do much more than type a number.
Well, I've only now on the following Tuesday been able to get back to this small writing. I did think of some other inventions i've had, but at the moment as I read back what I wrote earlier, I can't remember what they are. On the chopping block I have a number of increasingly complex projects of the utmost importance.
Well, I've only now on the following Tuesday been able to get back to this small writing. I did think of some other inventions i've had, but at the moment as I read back what I wrote earlier, I can't remember what they are. On the chopping block I have a number of increasingly complex projects of the utmost importance.
- Fix the exsaust on the 4runner, it is going to be a quick fix, or a pain in my ass.
- Fix the CV axle joint on the MR2.
- Get my rental stuff put out.....again.
- Order oil, somehow.
- Get the titles for the cars in order.
- find out how many lawyers I need to get hired for the various infractions of common sense and decent behavior i've seen in the past week
- order those darn parts.
Friday, September 13, 2013
What a week. non stop fun. Stress levels off the charts. I have had some crappy weeks in the past, but this one might take the cake.
It looked kinda clear that I was going to loose both houses this month, then it looked a bit better, and now 3pm Friday, another dead line come and gone, and I'm back to where I started.
I've been working day and night for a company clearing out houses all over central pa, but unless there are checks in the mail box today, whenever the postman chooses to get here, normally around 5pm, unless we have been paid, I'm looking at the possibility that our contractor was a scam, and instead of making thousands, we lost hundreds and blew the whole work month.
Last night, my laptop dropped, broke the screen. Now I have a blue, yellow and red line running down my screen and a big old rip in the base. I'm so over joyed.
Anyway, I'm entering the weekend back to the grim task of selling everything I can, not that any of it will help, but I have no where to put anything, and stuff has to go.
It is a beautiful day however. I spent it cleaning up the yard in the rental. The tenants have not paid the rent, and this is going to cause this house to go too. I which it wasn't the case but man it is.
It's going to have to go down as the most energy expended since i was 18, working full time 2 days after graduation in high school.
We learned today that most houses that have been given up share many of the same interested similar things in common. One of them, hundreds or thousands of old lottery tickets, everywhere. seems people get to the point where the powerball is the plan to save them. Of course, it doesn't. The other thing, Christmas stuff. no matter what, always left behind. It seems that when you are facing the real street as a place to live, one of the most universal things people throw out is giving a rats ass about Christmas. Past and future. It seems to almost be blamed, and I'd bet many times, not spending money at Christmas might have made a difference, hard to tell,
Racks that hold shoes are also "not that important" when living at the Y.
On top of all that wonderful stuff, I beat my Dodge Ram to death doing all this. It's feeling better, but it's not 100%, I need to do some preventative maintenance, but there is not much flash for that. I think that there is a way, but I also have had my MR2 break an axle 4 minutes after replacing all the brake pads and rotors on Sunday, and on Monday, the 4runner was sent out on an errand, and returned, broken, dead in the water with a dieing fuel pump, and or a new electrical problem.
So one week., lost MR2, 4runner, laptop, 2 houses, what I thought was finally a job, and maybe the transmission in my only working truck.
I did however find a bag of breaded chicken pieces at Karns for $5. woot woot.
Me=Watching Silence of the Lambs....
line 1 "It rubs the lotion on it's skin, it does this when ever it's told"
line 2 "it rubs it on it's skin or it gets the hose again..."
line 3 "yes it does precious, or it gets the hose..... "
line 4 "It places the lotion in the basket......."
line 5 "PUT THE FUCKING LOTION IN THE BASKET!" - Silence of the Lambs
I am without question at line level 5
I wonderful day like this should not be spent wondering where a person is going to live when that person's arms are too tired to lift the bag of tools he lugs with him everyday to fix all the things that break everyday.
But wait, as I get ready to hit publish, an email arrives....... I made my first international nunchaku sale this week to a man in Italy, He received them today, and took the time to write me.:
"Dear Henry,
--
David Vincenzetti
CEO
Hacking Team
Milan Singapore Washington DC"
You see, I never stop trying.....I fail most of the time, but I never stop trying.
It looked kinda clear that I was going to loose both houses this month, then it looked a bit better, and now 3pm Friday, another dead line come and gone, and I'm back to where I started.
I've been working day and night for a company clearing out houses all over central pa, but unless there are checks in the mail box today, whenever the postman chooses to get here, normally around 5pm, unless we have been paid, I'm looking at the possibility that our contractor was a scam, and instead of making thousands, we lost hundreds and blew the whole work month.
Last night, my laptop dropped, broke the screen. Now I have a blue, yellow and red line running down my screen and a big old rip in the base. I'm so over joyed.
Anyway, I'm entering the weekend back to the grim task of selling everything I can, not that any of it will help, but I have no where to put anything, and stuff has to go.
It is a beautiful day however. I spent it cleaning up the yard in the rental. The tenants have not paid the rent, and this is going to cause this house to go too. I which it wasn't the case but man it is.
It's going to have to go down as the most energy expended since i was 18, working full time 2 days after graduation in high school.
We learned today that most houses that have been given up share many of the same interested similar things in common. One of them, hundreds or thousands of old lottery tickets, everywhere. seems people get to the point where the powerball is the plan to save them. Of course, it doesn't. The other thing, Christmas stuff. no matter what, always left behind. It seems that when you are facing the real street as a place to live, one of the most universal things people throw out is giving a rats ass about Christmas. Past and future. It seems to almost be blamed, and I'd bet many times, not spending money at Christmas might have made a difference, hard to tell,
Racks that hold shoes are also "not that important" when living at the Y.
On top of all that wonderful stuff, I beat my Dodge Ram to death doing all this. It's feeling better, but it's not 100%, I need to do some preventative maintenance, but there is not much flash for that. I think that there is a way, but I also have had my MR2 break an axle 4 minutes after replacing all the brake pads and rotors on Sunday, and on Monday, the 4runner was sent out on an errand, and returned, broken, dead in the water with a dieing fuel pump, and or a new electrical problem.
So one week., lost MR2, 4runner, laptop, 2 houses, what I thought was finally a job, and maybe the transmission in my only working truck.
I did however find a bag of breaded chicken pieces at Karns for $5. woot woot.
Me=Watching Silence of the Lambs....
line 1 "It rubs the lotion on it's skin, it does this when ever it's told"
line 2 "it rubs it on it's skin or it gets the hose again..."
line 3 "yes it does precious, or it gets the hose..... "
line 4 "It places the lotion in the basket......."
line 5 "PUT THE FUCKING LOTION IN THE BASKET!" - Silence of the Lambs
I am without question at line level 5
I wonderful day like this should not be spent wondering where a person is going to live when that person's arms are too tired to lift the bag of tools he lugs with him everyday to fix all the things that break everyday.
But wait, as I get ready to hit publish, an email arrives....... I made my first international nunchaku sale this week to a man in Italy, He received them today, and took the time to write me.:
"Dear Henry,
Thank you very much!
I received the two nunchakus today. Excellent craftsmanship. Excellent products.
I will provide you with more feedback later but I wanted to congratulate with you for the quality of your products!
Regards,
David--
David Vincenzetti
CEO
Hacking Team
Milan Singapore Washington DC"
You see, I never stop trying.....I fail most of the time, but I never stop trying.
Friday, September 6, 2013
Lately we have been getting some good jobs closing up repo houses. Today was by far the most challenging. It was also full of interesting events. The first one being that as we arrived at the scene, the bank guy had already opened up the house, and the water guy was on his way. I entered the house while on the phone with one of the agents, and in walks this guy.
I gave him the conscience choice to have 20 seconds, but the way it all happened out of the blue start to finish in 20 seconds was crazy.
I'm going to have to get my carry permit renewed. These houses are over run with drug addicts who break in and live there in filth.
I knew he wasn't with anyone, but he was gambling. So while in mid sentence he walks towards me looks me dead in the eye, and waits for a facial signal from me. He goes up to the oven, opens the oven door, and takes out a package. And b lines for the front door right past the bank guy and the water guy, and the city guy who has also just showed up.
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| motion |
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| things floating in the camera |
I was then a super star by completing the act of locking my keys in the truck when we came back from the dump the first time. That was fun. But the most interesting part was a set of photos I took in the cleared out basement.
This next part was shot on my iPhone video, it shows what i was seeing. They looks like orbs, and the camera was catching them, but there were so many, it's hard to see them all.
There is no power, so we had to work in the dark in this room in the basement, but when I took the clear photos, I noticed all this stuff flying in in all directions on the camera screen. You could not see it with the naked eye, at all. I tried to take one photos, but the lite video shows it the best. It was creepy. I got it on film however. It was like all these lines of motion and floaty things.
This next part was shot on my iPhone video, it shows what i was seeing. They looks like orbs, and the camera was catching them, but there were so many, it's hard to see them all.
Thursday, August 29, 2013
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| Standing Halfway up the "driveway" Buckwheat Rd |
None the less, as my trucks transmission started acting up pulling my way out to the nearest "town" ( the nearest town being a small farm with elf statues and a pond with a cow in it), Beyond that, the huge village of Millerstown. Population 560, est 1790, and every god dam road leading into it in every direction, looking like a main field was tested out on it. I counted my blessings that I was able to drive in a direction, that in time, did get a cell phone tower connection with one bar. It was the old kind from the movies, 1/2g or "E" service. That one bar is why I was able to be home as we speak. Otherwise I was one flat tire from no body ever seeing me ever again.
I mean.....what price does a human put on hours spent like that? At what point is something worth the muscle, and at what point do you set the bar? Somebody has to get up there? What will they charge? Will some asshole do it for next to nothing next week, or will a smart guy come along and live off the money he made making it happen for a few weeks. Cause honestly, i'm busting my ass, and I have no answers.
Three hours, (the whole afternoon), 81 miles, thirty dollars in gas and maybe one truck transmission, one bottled water, one 1$ bag of Doritos later I arrived at home solidly as the the first non profit Handyman lawn service in the world. "We're not looking to make any money, just pass the time" lol
I've noticed a few things on the road in the last few days. PA roads are almost, not roads. in a 1/2 ton 4x4 you feel everything. My uncle put it best as we peeled our selves out of the seats |" it's tiring just being in this truck for more than 5 minutes" and it's true. With the shitty state of all these roads, and my poor truck pulling this trailer into the mouth of hell, FOR FREE......and I can't even get PennDot to make the ride smooth. Even BuckWheat Road, Millerstown needs some help guys.....jesus.
Thursday, August 22, 2013
After finishing my real life roofing project, I was planning on a relaxing day of painting. Of course my silly human brain did not connect the dots on the things that would most likely keep me from getting anything done today as it is 12:41pm and I have only been able to ship out a nunchaku order at the post office as my entire days worth of "things done".
It all started last night. My knees and body hurt so much from the endless physical strain of being a one man construction crew for three weeks, that I thought it would be nice to make dinner on the grill. Of course the chicken was from the food bank, as we are 22 days late on the mortgage and have not been able to afford regular food the whole summer.
The problem with Chicken from the food bank is that you do not know how long it has been sitting around. Lets just say that at 4am, my stomach was able to tell me. I spent about 30 minutes in the bathroom trying to live through what I made for dinner the evening prior. OF course I got up feeling like death and began my daily chores of making sure my wife has taken all of her medicine. These require my phone to have timers set all day to make sure that each one is taken at the correct time. By 8am, a puppy we have agreed to watch will then be dropped off. Of course I'm the only person who can walk around as everyone else in the house is either bed bound by sickness or bed bound by laziness. By the time I found everything to ship my order which took hours due to my stomach pains, misplaced office supplies and various other distractions, I noticed that the shipping quote seemed low. Having spent 4 months getting the shopping cart to work as it should, I didn't find this surprising. Every time someone buys something from the store, the store breaks. Each time it is something different, and each time it is never anyone's fault. This time the USPS was used to ship, charging $2.42 for shipping. The cart said that it should have been $6.71, and of course when I got to the post office it was $8.42. When I got back home I waned to simulate the check out process. You see, my silly brain doesn't know how to give up.....so i keep trying. (you would think this would be a great life skill and asset for employment, in reality it is a weakness) Of course now the USPS is not listed as an option for shipping. FedEx, and UPS were, and bonus problem, they were shipping for less than the US post office, according to my site. I spent about 45 minutes getting no where. While all of this is going on, I also noticed that the VPS server was not letting me in. All the sites were up and running, but the management was blocking me. As this wonder news was discovered, my wife is now getting to the bad chicken part of the story in the bathroom. She tend to be a bit slower with the metabolism. It is now 1pm
Another wasted day, nothing done. This stuff happens to me every day, every week, every month. My life has been on hold for 6 years. No matter how many things I fix, more break. No matter how successful one day is, another comes along to wipe it out.
You can try to have a glowing Good Morning America attitude, but in the end it's always food poisoning, bills, or some ass climbing out of the woodwork to fuck you over. I wonder, how do those fuckheads in time square have lives that enable them to get up at 4am drive into New York City of all places , ON TIME mind you, and have the time to scream and yell at the TV camera for 3 hours? All happy, in new clothing smiling like the world is just the most wonderful shit storm ever created. Who has a life that lets them do that? I can't even go to the grocery store without some event screwing me for hours.
This is how my day goes as unemployed. I can not imagine what would happen if i could get a real 9-5 job. for me to be out of touch for 9 hours everyday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Holy crap on a stick, it could never happen. My only option at this point is to go back to school to learn a new trade from scratch. and that seems impossible. I've already learned that computers and I will never get along. I think to clearly for that. If I could get money for the schooling, what on earth would I study? I've tried hard labor my whole life since I was 15 years old, I know that my body could never hold out or up long enough to get anywhere. So what is left? I have all day and have proven that I can not get anything done, ever. I have no sense of accomplishment what so ever, and I try harder than any of the people I see around me. I'm not tooting my own horn, I've been paying attention to this as it has bothered me for a long time. IF anyone I knew had to go threw the flaming hoops that I go threw everyday not one of them would not give up. So how does everyone else in life I know get things done? We all have the same amount of time in a day.
It all started last night. My knees and body hurt so much from the endless physical strain of being a one man construction crew for three weeks, that I thought it would be nice to make dinner on the grill. Of course the chicken was from the food bank, as we are 22 days late on the mortgage and have not been able to afford regular food the whole summer.
The problem with Chicken from the food bank is that you do not know how long it has been sitting around. Lets just say that at 4am, my stomach was able to tell me. I spent about 30 minutes in the bathroom trying to live through what I made for dinner the evening prior. OF course I got up feeling like death and began my daily chores of making sure my wife has taken all of her medicine. These require my phone to have timers set all day to make sure that each one is taken at the correct time. By 8am, a puppy we have agreed to watch will then be dropped off. Of course I'm the only person who can walk around as everyone else in the house is either bed bound by sickness or bed bound by laziness. By the time I found everything to ship my order which took hours due to my stomach pains, misplaced office supplies and various other distractions, I noticed that the shipping quote seemed low. Having spent 4 months getting the shopping cart to work as it should, I didn't find this surprising. Every time someone buys something from the store, the store breaks. Each time it is something different, and each time it is never anyone's fault. This time the USPS was used to ship, charging $2.42 for shipping. The cart said that it should have been $6.71, and of course when I got to the post office it was $8.42. When I got back home I waned to simulate the check out process. You see, my silly brain doesn't know how to give up.....so i keep trying. (you would think this would be a great life skill and asset for employment, in reality it is a weakness) Of course now the USPS is not listed as an option for shipping. FedEx, and UPS were, and bonus problem, they were shipping for less than the US post office, according to my site. I spent about 45 minutes getting no where. While all of this is going on, I also noticed that the VPS server was not letting me in. All the sites were up and running, but the management was blocking me. As this wonder news was discovered, my wife is now getting to the bad chicken part of the story in the bathroom. She tend to be a bit slower with the metabolism. It is now 1pm
Another wasted day, nothing done. This stuff happens to me every day, every week, every month. My life has been on hold for 6 years. No matter how many things I fix, more break. No matter how successful one day is, another comes along to wipe it out.
You can try to have a glowing Good Morning America attitude, but in the end it's always food poisoning, bills, or some ass climbing out of the woodwork to fuck you over. I wonder, how do those fuckheads in time square have lives that enable them to get up at 4am drive into New York City of all places , ON TIME mind you, and have the time to scream and yell at the TV camera for 3 hours? All happy, in new clothing smiling like the world is just the most wonderful shit storm ever created. Who has a life that lets them do that? I can't even go to the grocery store without some event screwing me for hours.
This is how my day goes as unemployed. I can not imagine what would happen if i could get a real 9-5 job. for me to be out of touch for 9 hours everyday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Holy crap on a stick, it could never happen. My only option at this point is to go back to school to learn a new trade from scratch. and that seems impossible. I've already learned that computers and I will never get along. I think to clearly for that. If I could get money for the schooling, what on earth would I study? I've tried hard labor my whole life since I was 15 years old, I know that my body could never hold out or up long enough to get anywhere. So what is left? I have all day and have proven that I can not get anything done, ever. I have no sense of accomplishment what so ever, and I try harder than any of the people I see around me. I'm not tooting my own horn, I've been paying attention to this as it has bothered me for a long time. IF anyone I knew had to go threw the flaming hoops that I go threw everyday not one of them would not give up. So how does everyone else in life I know get things done? We all have the same amount of time in a day.
Wednesday, August 21, 2013
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Well today marked the end of the summer porch project, phase 2 " the nasty part." It took me a bit more than I figured. About a week more. There is only one small problem. No one will ever know. You see one of the things I think most people do when working on a large project solo, is to gauge your progress, take photos, ect... Now I'm not saying that I have not done these things. Also, all the male neighbors have been by, and had convo's about my progress on Saturday afternoons. The problem is that no one will ever really see the work that was done. Today I discovered as I was finishing up, that there is no vantage point on the ground, or across the street, or anywhere that you can even see the roof. I couldn't believe it. Not one vantage point. You literally have to be standing on the roof to see any of it.All that is left to do up there is some sanding and painting. The rough stuff is gone... Then it's an autumn of football and finishing up my office on the inside.
This project has taken a huge toll on my knees. I need to ice them.
Monday, August 12, 2013
I'm starting this post as we are watcning a tv show about children who claim to have rencarnation and past lives memories. The idea always sparks a convo in our house as we all have ideas on the subject.
Often when we talk about spirts, and ghosts and what these things are if they are real, I always seem to have an idea that leads to one or two quantuim mechanics, principles that I believe are all related. Sally hates that part...lol
This posts starts with a question. Why, if reincarnation is real would these small children remember things from their past lives? What would be the point? How is it possible? I'm offering up an idea. it dosn't have an end, or conclusion, but it is interesting. Take these seperate thoughts, and think on them.
Often when we talk about spirts, and ghosts and what these things are if they are real, I always seem to have an idea that leads to one or two quantuim mechanics, principles that I believe are all related. Sally hates that part...lol
This posts starts with a question. Why, if reincarnation is real would these small children remember things from their past lives? What would be the point? How is it possible? I'm offering up an idea. it dosn't have an end, or conclusion, but it is interesting. Take these seperate thoughts, and think on them.
- Spooky action at a distance: The fancey name "Quantum Entanglement & Nonlocality"
In quantum theory, certain physical systems can become "entangled," meaning that their states are directly related to the state of another object somewhere else. When one object is measured, and the Schroedinger wavefunction collapses into a single state, the other object collapses into its corresponding state ... no matter how far away the objects are (i.e. nonlocality).
What does this mean? It means that there is something we dont see or understand that links the fundimental parts of matter, to each other, and the reaction between the matter is not bound by distance or time. Still not with me? ok. If you take one electron and then take it's connected like twin electron and place it on the oter side of the galaxy. Go back to the one near you and turn it left, the electron on the other side of the galaxy will turn right at the same time you turn the one left. There is no time lag, or difference. it happen at the same time, no matter how far. Take that concept, and put it on a shelf. - You are what you eat: We have all heard this, but have you really thought about what that means? If everything on the earth, the dirt, and water the air, even you. if everything comes from partials that have escaped stars that would mean that we are all from the same places. It also means that if you have eaten the same things, everyday for the last decade, all the mass that is "you" is made of what you have eaten. In other words, after a certain amount of time, we all have shared the same partials and elements that we are all made of. Take that idea, and place it on the shelf.
- The Vacation concept: Your soul is simply here on vacation. It's a popular concept. The basic idea is that your soul is on vacation in reality. The reality that is this universe. The universe is by design, a vacation resort, while alive you are able to experience a tactile experience of reality. A simply way to grasp this is to think of a ghost being sick of begin transparent, and wants to be solid again for a while. Another concept along those lines is that you are here to learn some lesson. Maybe over and over, thus....reincarnation. Either way, whether a school, a resort or even a game, it wouldn't work very well if you knew. In other words, why would you play a game, if you knew who won. If you knew this "life" was a test, or a vacation, and had a really bad day, ....well you can imagine. People can quit games. People can cancel vacations. People skip school. If you knew what was going on, suicides would be common. It just wouldn't work on any level if you knew. But what if you only retained a "hint" or a template. What if you the "soul" that is you, also runs with the same souls, over and over, playing the game as different people, but always the same souls. Take that idea, and place it on the shelf.
Monday, August 5, 2013
Sunday, August 4, 2013
Tuesday, July 23, 2013
"Don't shit where you sleep"
The basic problem with the passive aggressive Gandhi attitude towards authority
For the last 6 years I've had the wonderful experience of being the dreaded "step father" or in the children heads "step person".
I've trying to break 15 years of really bad habits and general disrespect for anything and everything that doesn't effect the basics of their bottom line. A bottom line they believe they have some entitlement to.
I've tried everything. It has gotten me no where. They have been aloud to have loyalty to their real father above all else. He lets them smoke and drink and hang out and basically do nothing but play World of Warcraft locked in bed rooms for the last 6 years, only coming out to drop off dirty dishes on days they don't have to do dishes. Every attempt at order, chores, values, work ethics, right and wrong has been met with nothing but energy spent on side stepping, and "end arounds" . Some designed to get what they want when they want it, and other simply to chip away at my sanity in the hopes that I simply throw in the towel.
After countless battles over messy kitchens, lights, TV's and computers left on, ON purpose, the air being let out of tires, and a basic total boycott of anything that would help me in any way, even at the expense of hurting there own mother to make a point, I've decided to take a new attitude.
I am going to wait it out. I only have a few more years before they are gone, and I've prepared myself to live in complete filth with the knowledge that soon, I will be able to live in a home that I can invite friends and family over to come inside the house to and live comfortable as a normal person, only having to deal with these kids as visiting adults. Having the ability to clean the house and update and improve the house and being able to know that it is not going to be wasted energy. Knowing that when I get home, it will be as I left it. Not having to hide prescriptions, check books, money when I leave my own house. These are the things that I have been reduced to longing for above all else. Things that normal people have everyday are dreams to me.
You see though, they have not thought it through. All the times I've asked for tv's and computer to be turned off, now the lightning strikes are taking out each piece of equipment they are using as weapons because the strategy of leaving things on is getting them fried. The car that we pay for insurance and all the other things for years is now almost run into the ground, in over a week I will not be re registering it at all.
If a twenty year old who has never even had a paper route thinks i'm going to finance his driving forever, he is nuts. By the age of twenty i was on my third car. Any every one of them was paid for by me. I blew two up by being a child. But that is how you learn the world sucks.
The Xbox's that don't work, everything is slowly breaking down. sadly they still look to me to fix the stuff they break, while leaving a pig pen through out the whole house. All the baby toys they will not let us throw out, all the crap stuffed in drawers, everything is going to disintegrate into nothing.
They will learn this last lesson from me and hopefully it will teach them one basic lesson of life. "Don't shit where you sleep"
So yeah the guy you give the middle finger to is not going to fix your car, or you computer or your Xbox. The guy who asks you to simply close a door or clean up your crumbs is not going to finance your driving or insure your pot smoking. He is not going to do jack squat. He is going to give you the gift he has been given, nothing......:)
Ah.....I feel wonderful. And Yes, I am going to put the surveillance cameras on my cars and drive way, hell maybe even my room. No more free gas while I sleep, no more letting the air out of my tires, no more Bee Bee gun attacks on my cars.
They have made a bed of disrespect and now they are going to sleep in it and I could not be more happy.
The basic problem with the passive aggressive Gandhi attitude towards authority
For the last 6 years I've had the wonderful experience of being the dreaded "step father" or in the children heads "step person".
I've trying to break 15 years of really bad habits and general disrespect for anything and everything that doesn't effect the basics of their bottom line. A bottom line they believe they have some entitlement to.
I've tried everything. It has gotten me no where. They have been aloud to have loyalty to their real father above all else. He lets them smoke and drink and hang out and basically do nothing but play World of Warcraft locked in bed rooms for the last 6 years, only coming out to drop off dirty dishes on days they don't have to do dishes. Every attempt at order, chores, values, work ethics, right and wrong has been met with nothing but energy spent on side stepping, and "end arounds" . Some designed to get what they want when they want it, and other simply to chip away at my sanity in the hopes that I simply throw in the towel.
After countless battles over messy kitchens, lights, TV's and computers left on, ON purpose, the air being let out of tires, and a basic total boycott of anything that would help me in any way, even at the expense of hurting there own mother to make a point, I've decided to take a new attitude.
I am going to wait it out. I only have a few more years before they are gone, and I've prepared myself to live in complete filth with the knowledge that soon, I will be able to live in a home that I can invite friends and family over to come inside the house to and live comfortable as a normal person, only having to deal with these kids as visiting adults. Having the ability to clean the house and update and improve the house and being able to know that it is not going to be wasted energy. Knowing that when I get home, it will be as I left it. Not having to hide prescriptions, check books, money when I leave my own house. These are the things that I have been reduced to longing for above all else. Things that normal people have everyday are dreams to me.
You see though, they have not thought it through. All the times I've asked for tv's and computer to be turned off, now the lightning strikes are taking out each piece of equipment they are using as weapons because the strategy of leaving things on is getting them fried. The car that we pay for insurance and all the other things for years is now almost run into the ground, in over a week I will not be re registering it at all.
If a twenty year old who has never even had a paper route thinks i'm going to finance his driving forever, he is nuts. By the age of twenty i was on my third car. Any every one of them was paid for by me. I blew two up by being a child. But that is how you learn the world sucks.
The Xbox's that don't work, everything is slowly breaking down. sadly they still look to me to fix the stuff they break, while leaving a pig pen through out the whole house. All the baby toys they will not let us throw out, all the crap stuffed in drawers, everything is going to disintegrate into nothing.
They will learn this last lesson from me and hopefully it will teach them one basic lesson of life. "Don't shit where you sleep"
So yeah the guy you give the middle finger to is not going to fix your car, or you computer or your Xbox. The guy who asks you to simply close a door or clean up your crumbs is not going to finance your driving or insure your pot smoking. He is not going to do jack squat. He is going to give you the gift he has been given, nothing......:)
Ah.....I feel wonderful. And Yes, I am going to put the surveillance cameras on my cars and drive way, hell maybe even my room. No more free gas while I sleep, no more letting the air out of my tires, no more Bee Bee gun attacks on my cars.
They have made a bed of disrespect and now they are going to sleep in it and I could not be more happy.
Monday, June 10, 2013
In the few hours that have come and gone since we heard this story break , over the weekend, (worst time to break a story for traction in the media), i've gotten into a bunch of online debates over my view that this man is indeed a hero. I believe that he has sacrificed his life to show us the truth about what our government does to us, how they do it, why, and what we don't know they use this information for.
Now firstly, understand, there is no free media. In the few hours that have gone by since a watched Mr Snowden tell us what he did, and why he did it, he has become a number of things. We will never know if any of them are true. You have to understand, he is butting heads with the guys who made a six million dollar man, the NSA. They have stuff you can't even dream of. This guy last night went to Hong Kong because he is not stupid, and he wants to try and be safe from our government. This morning, even though he worked for the NSA, this morning he is a high school drop out who didn't finish community college, and some how got a job at the NSA......? By the end of the day he will have been in the middle east or seen building car bombs. They are gonna re paint this guy to be the thing you fear.
The patriot act passed in the middle of the night after 911 gave the government the right , without a warrant, to get up close and personable with you if they so much as have any reason they can think of to do so. Software was put into place that can read the lips of 40,000 people at once at a sporting event, just to see if anyone says a word that could be a bad word....one that might mean something bad is going to happen. This is not fiction, this is real. What we have now been told is that it's worse than that. We are no being told that every single thing you say and or do is being recorded. everything.
Forget your Gun rights. The very thing that makes you hold up your hands and say, "They will have to pry it form my cold dead hands", is gone. They don't need your guns, they have your ass.
9pm EST: ABC evening News. "Is Edward Snowden giving our secrets to terrorist? "
Just like I predicted when I started writing this in the morning, but evening they would have you believe this man is an active terrorist.....yes, who somehow tricked the NSA into giving him three jobs. They would paint the picture that his man is walking around Asia with a briefcase of papers!!!! ridiculous!!! He simple told us what our government is doing to us, he didn't steal the information, HE TOLD YOU ABOUT IT BEING COLLECTED.
It is so frustrating to watch this unfold, time after time, the truth, and the real news....twisted and spun.
There was a dream that was America....if you reached for it too quickly...it would just slip away in the night. my friends....it slipped away many years ago.
Now firstly, understand, there is no free media. In the few hours that have gone by since a watched Mr Snowden tell us what he did, and why he did it, he has become a number of things. We will never know if any of them are true. You have to understand, he is butting heads with the guys who made a six million dollar man, the NSA. They have stuff you can't even dream of. This guy last night went to Hong Kong because he is not stupid, and he wants to try and be safe from our government. This morning, even though he worked for the NSA, this morning he is a high school drop out who didn't finish community college, and some how got a job at the NSA......? By the end of the day he will have been in the middle east or seen building car bombs. They are gonna re paint this guy to be the thing you fear.
The patriot act passed in the middle of the night after 911 gave the government the right , without a warrant, to get up close and personable with you if they so much as have any reason they can think of to do so. Software was put into place that can read the lips of 40,000 people at once at a sporting event, just to see if anyone says a word that could be a bad word....one that might mean something bad is going to happen. This is not fiction, this is real. What we have now been told is that it's worse than that. We are no being told that every single thing you say and or do is being recorded. everything.
Forget your Gun rights. The very thing that makes you hold up your hands and say, "They will have to pry it form my cold dead hands", is gone. They don't need your guns, they have your ass.
9pm EST: ABC evening News. "Is Edward Snowden giving our secrets to terrorist? "
Just like I predicted when I started writing this in the morning, but evening they would have you believe this man is an active terrorist.....yes, who somehow tricked the NSA into giving him three jobs. They would paint the picture that his man is walking around Asia with a briefcase of papers!!!! ridiculous!!! He simple told us what our government is doing to us, he didn't steal the information, HE TOLD YOU ABOUT IT BEING COLLECTED.
It is so frustrating to watch this unfold, time after time, the truth, and the real news....twisted and spun.
There was a dream that was America....if you reached for it too quickly...it would just slip away in the night. my friends....it slipped away many years ago.
Sunday, June 2, 2013
So I'm sitting here, and I notice that the neighbors across the way have people showing up for some event. What is weird is that all these cars showed up from all over, within the exact same minute. 4:14 pm... now if they said, be here at 4 pm, and there were a few who started rolling in at quarter after , that is normal, who wants to be first at a party. But to have everyone show up, at 4:14 pm at the same time. that's freaky. They are all either tuned into some other level of fashion or i don't even know what..... wait....wait... a late arrival, 4:20.... ok so there is someone not binged into the "continuum" of perfection across the street.
IT's like watching the twilight ZOne.....wow
IT's like watching the twilight ZOne.....wow
Tuesday, May 28, 2013
As I've been watching the news, and how just a few weeks ago central pa was brought to a stand still when on overpass had a truck explode on it closing most of the ramps around it.
All large population centers have roads and bridges that serve huge amounts of logistics each day. Take out one small part, and much like a chain with one weak link, the whole system breaks down. As I watch natural storms, explosions in factories, and fires on trains, boats, planes ect... It would seem that the easiest way to envolke terror on the US is not large scale attacks but simple nuance attacks. Most people do not equate 911 and the symbolic attack in the US monetary system. While the world trade center is the heart of the NY stock exchange, that didn't stop the US economy, what did do it was getting pay back in the form of two wars lasting over 13 years. You see taking down the towers in effect put the US in a recession. We did it to ourselves. All we really needed was patience and one special forces team. The same way that one simple overpass, or accident can cripple a city or a week, one destructive act can plunge the strongest economy and consumer based into complete stagnation. The hard prt to admit is that we did it to ourselves.
I hope that these nightly stories of bombers, train wrecks, tornados, floods and fires do not give bad people good ideas.
Friday, May 24, 2013
Having cancer is one of the hardest things a person can go through. Being the person who picks up the slack, is also a job worthy of note. It's going to be a whole year of this now in a few months. Thankfully the last treatment has been set in, and now it's just riding out the side effects for the next months.
It's been a busy spring. We have finished some BHS projects. started on the lawn care, PayPal dropped me as a vendor last week. Seems me selling Martial arts weapons was not what they meant by your site is approved for PayPal. I found that odd. In a sick way I'm making it hard on them by leaving my logos up on the site until I can find a way for people to buy them again. It's a great idea, people want the product, but selling them has a bunch of built in "you can't" that have never been challenged. I need to get my Nunchaku to the real instructors. Too many people think they are those foam practice ones, which is just not the case.
usanunchaku.com Handmade martial arts nunchaku, made in the USA, with american trees, what could be more american?...LOL
We are not opening the pool this year. Just no money for it, and the thing leaks, I swear it does..... Plus, I've said this for two years. Until that beach house, "hut" is cleared out of all the junk inside, I'm not taking that dam pool pump apart or working on any of it. Given my family's hate of heat, and the fact that they don't' line to go anywhere, say, another pool.....I'm feeling like that beach house is going to be cleaned out this summer.
I've got the restart of the server next month, that should be painless. I'm hoping.
The tenants in the city would like to stay on, I'm really happy about that, I like them, they have been good people and good tenants, problem is, they are both looking for better work, and like all of us, they need to make ends meet. I am hoping that I don't have to show that house all summer.....that is the worst most boring job all summer.
Bowman's Homes Services: It's going.... but it's not going fast enough. I view it as a job, while my uncle views it as a hobbie that enables him to drive to Lowes, every day. I feel like we really need to get these jobs down to one trip if we want to make any money. But we carry on. I was able to pick up a 98 dodge 1500 1/2 ton pickup for nothing, needed paint and inspection. the guy i bought it from sold it to me for $1000 because he couldn't get it started. After the sale, I started it, and drove it home. another $1000 later it's perfect. However on it's first trip to Highland gardens to pick up dirt, the guy hit it with his tractor, wrecking the bumper and tailgate. both of which the insurance co is paying for, but what a bitch!!!! first dirty job, and they dent my truck......yoy
Welp, thats all the updates I've been able to think of. It's time to get the Friday chores knocked off the lists.
It's been a busy spring. We have finished some BHS projects. started on the lawn care, PayPal dropped me as a vendor last week. Seems me selling Martial arts weapons was not what they meant by your site is approved for PayPal. I found that odd. In a sick way I'm making it hard on them by leaving my logos up on the site until I can find a way for people to buy them again. It's a great idea, people want the product, but selling them has a bunch of built in "you can't" that have never been challenged. I need to get my Nunchaku to the real instructors. Too many people think they are those foam practice ones, which is just not the case.
usanunchaku.com Handmade martial arts nunchaku, made in the USA, with american trees, what could be more american?...LOL
We are not opening the pool this year. Just no money for it, and the thing leaks, I swear it does..... Plus, I've said this for two years. Until that beach house, "hut" is cleared out of all the junk inside, I'm not taking that dam pool pump apart or working on any of it. Given my family's hate of heat, and the fact that they don't' line to go anywhere, say, another pool.....I'm feeling like that beach house is going to be cleaned out this summer.
I've got the restart of the server next month, that should be painless. I'm hoping.
The tenants in the city would like to stay on, I'm really happy about that, I like them, they have been good people and good tenants, problem is, they are both looking for better work, and like all of us, they need to make ends meet. I am hoping that I don't have to show that house all summer.....that is the worst most boring job all summer.
Bowman's Homes Services: It's going.... but it's not going fast enough. I view it as a job, while my uncle views it as a hobbie that enables him to drive to Lowes, every day. I feel like we really need to get these jobs down to one trip if we want to make any money. But we carry on. I was able to pick up a 98 dodge 1500 1/2 ton pickup for nothing, needed paint and inspection. the guy i bought it from sold it to me for $1000 because he couldn't get it started. After the sale, I started it, and drove it home. another $1000 later it's perfect. However on it's first trip to Highland gardens to pick up dirt, the guy hit it with his tractor, wrecking the bumper and tailgate. both of which the insurance co is paying for, but what a bitch!!!! first dirty job, and they dent my truck......yoy
Welp, thats all the updates I've been able to think of. It's time to get the Friday chores knocked off the lists.
Sunday, May 12, 2013
Friday, April 5, 2013
Highly unlikely. The earth is too messed up for the first day we can open the windows to be clear sign of spring. It will be snowing in a few days.
I've got to decide if I should I should repair this house or leave it to the bank. I reAlly could go either way. In the city I could be free from do many shitty little snotty things. Gonna loose my ass either wAy. Might as well be in my own terms
Not some teens Idea of what's fair and not fair.
I've got to decide if I should I should repair this house or leave it to the bank. I reAlly could go either way. In the city I could be free from do many shitty little snotty things. Gonna loose my ass either wAy. Might as well be in my own terms
Not some teens Idea of what's fair and not fair.
Wednesday, March 6, 2013
Being super poor, lends it self to cheap hobbies, and rather drab forms of entertainment. For a few years now I've been playing a browser game called Travian. It's a war strategy game which plays out on servers all over the world with thousands of players with each game lasting up to 11 months. It involves math, military thinking and believe it or not good communication and social skills combined with team work because the only way to win is to band together 90 players in an alliance. it's the modern version of the game war, but played out on your computer browser instead of a board game. once it starts, it doesn't stop. it runs for months only breaking for Christmas and new years for 3 days. I like most people involved in a game or sport like this, have tried to get good at it. I've failed allot, kept getting up and trying again and again. a few weeks ago, I started a new round with some players I knew and started out to do really well. tonight my hopes were smashed after weeks of setting up my account. I'm devastated I'm not even just talking upset, i'm almost in tears. I put all my misery of real life aside when i sit down to play this game, it's my only hobby, my only form of entertainment and it would seem i suck at it. either that or like real life, I have some bad luck that will not let up. it's going on 3 am, i can not sleep, i'm sick to my stomach Not just over this game, but in general this day put my nerves to the test at every turn.
I know it's just a game. I know it doesn't matter if I win, but somehow the way I feel over this horrible day and horrible outcome of fate is effecting me on way more levels than I'm prepared for. I literally feel sick. I'm climbing out of my skin.
I know it's just a game. I know it doesn't matter if I win, but somehow the way I feel over this horrible day and horrible outcome of fate is effecting me on way more levels than I'm prepared for. I literally feel sick. I'm climbing out of my skin.
Tuesday, March 5, 2013
I'm an out of work graphic designer. A number of years ago, I left my job field to work as a manager in a local company dong IT, design, and overall customer service, company duties and everything in between for about 15k more than i was making being stressed out in an under staffed (free interns) design firm. While i was one of a few people that were on a real payroll, the stress of the job with no help in sight made the choice easy to move on for a better salary. I truly believe that I helped my new company survive years longer than they would have when the recession really started to hurt the economy. I cut their monthly operation costs by 60% and got them in the black. In time though, that wasn't enough, and being in the position I was in, I had to let myself go, as the company could not pay my wages any longer. I have survived on Unemployment only for the last year and a half. That ran out last month, and I finally started getting some good job leads. I went to a perfect interview for a job I was perfect for. I interviewed perfectly. It lasted over 1 1/2 hours. I left feeling like it was lock. Found out 3 days ago, they passed on me, adding the comment that "I was great, and they really liked me". While that is nice to hear, it is also terrifying to have such a great interview, and still not get the job. I was so in disbelief that I actually called them today to see if my news was a mistake. There are no words to how awkward that phone call was.
You would think after saying all of that, that my days would be open to job hunting, being positive and forging ahead. but it's not. I will use today as an example.
I woke at 7:30, let the dogs out and sat down at my desk. I spent from 8:30 am to 2 pm doing nothing but fight on the phone with people who are trying to basically rob me in one way or another. From the courthouse over a $350 screw up with my taxes (not my fault), to insurance coverage for our house that was damaged before Christmas which is now in limbo because of a bank error, to a two year battle with our water company, sewer company, and local borough that I was able to win, even after the PA utility commission abandoned us. It was won, finished and solved only for me to get a letter on Monday stating that they found some new magic bill for $350 and that if I don't pay it now, they will shut of our water and put a lean on my house. I had to contact the PA attorney general and defend myself against T mobile, who filed a claim with a collection agency against me for a phone plan I never even applied for. I won that one too. I again had to try and save us form the sewer company, but the utility commission can't help me again because they don't control the borough I live in, so I had to start hunting a lawyer who I have to hire to sue the township, I had to continue my fight on our property taxes which were raised to double what our house is worth, only to find out the nearest court date i can get is in august, and even if I win, the change will not go into effect till 2014. I also had to cancel my credit cards today because as I ran through my bank statements this morning only to realize that someone has gotten my CC number's and started using it at a gamestop somewhere yesterday. I'm sure i'm forgetting a few, but in short I spent my whole day fighting to keep what is mine, mine, and beating off every single vulture stealing the last bits of what I still have.
I wish I could say this was a once a year kind of day, but the fact of the matter is, this is every day of my life. Maybe not all as bad as this one, but generally I spend 60% of my day, everyday keeping wolves at bay. If I am not there to do it, whether it's delusional heroin addicts trying to get in our house to steal pills and or money, or banks, or johnny law....every day is spent fighting to keep these things at bay. I can not imagine how a person with a 9 to 5 could ever fight like this. There simply is not the time in any day to do such things. This is no way to live. When all is said and done I can't think straight at all. We are so strapped for cash, we eat once every two days, and it is crap food. A night out for us is staying home and being able to afford a bag of pretzels, that also doubles as our dinner.
We all need to see a doctor, but only my step kids have insurance but it's chip, which means a simple tooth cleaning means driving 50 minutes during rush hour to Lancaster My wife has her own company, but none of her customers have paid in three months, she has no health care at all, like me, and we now have to charge her medicine which we can't afford and while she is owned three months worth of invoices, all of it is spent already.
I just dont see how anyone could work this stuff out. how did Alexander the great take over the whole known world by age 21, when I can't even get enough gas in my car to drive to the PO box?
I sigh.......and I take in a deep breath.........close my eyes. and I wonder........
You would think after saying all of that, that my days would be open to job hunting, being positive and forging ahead. but it's not. I will use today as an example.
I woke at 7:30, let the dogs out and sat down at my desk. I spent from 8:30 am to 2 pm doing nothing but fight on the phone with people who are trying to basically rob me in one way or another. From the courthouse over a $350 screw up with my taxes (not my fault), to insurance coverage for our house that was damaged before Christmas which is now in limbo because of a bank error, to a two year battle with our water company, sewer company, and local borough that I was able to win, even after the PA utility commission abandoned us. It was won, finished and solved only for me to get a letter on Monday stating that they found some new magic bill for $350 and that if I don't pay it now, they will shut of our water and put a lean on my house. I had to contact the PA attorney general and defend myself against T mobile, who filed a claim with a collection agency against me for a phone plan I never even applied for. I won that one too. I again had to try and save us form the sewer company, but the utility commission can't help me again because they don't control the borough I live in, so I had to start hunting a lawyer who I have to hire to sue the township, I had to continue my fight on our property taxes which were raised to double what our house is worth, only to find out the nearest court date i can get is in august, and even if I win, the change will not go into effect till 2014. I also had to cancel my credit cards today because as I ran through my bank statements this morning only to realize that someone has gotten my CC number's and started using it at a gamestop somewhere yesterday. I'm sure i'm forgetting a few, but in short I spent my whole day fighting to keep what is mine, mine, and beating off every single vulture stealing the last bits of what I still have.
I wish I could say this was a once a year kind of day, but the fact of the matter is, this is every day of my life. Maybe not all as bad as this one, but generally I spend 60% of my day, everyday keeping wolves at bay. If I am not there to do it, whether it's delusional heroin addicts trying to get in our house to steal pills and or money, or banks, or johnny law....every day is spent fighting to keep these things at bay. I can not imagine how a person with a 9 to 5 could ever fight like this. There simply is not the time in any day to do such things. This is no way to live. When all is said and done I can't think straight at all. We are so strapped for cash, we eat once every two days, and it is crap food. A night out for us is staying home and being able to afford a bag of pretzels, that also doubles as our dinner.
We all need to see a doctor, but only my step kids have insurance but it's chip, which means a simple tooth cleaning means driving 50 minutes during rush hour to Lancaster My wife has her own company, but none of her customers have paid in three months, she has no health care at all, like me, and we now have to charge her medicine which we can't afford and while she is owned three months worth of invoices, all of it is spent already.
I just dont see how anyone could work this stuff out. how did Alexander the great take over the whole known world by age 21, when I can't even get enough gas in my car to drive to the PO box?
I sigh.......and I take in a deep breath.........close my eyes. and I wonder........
Wednesday, February 27, 2013
I have just renamed my dog baby..."Shultz McDonald" The Lassa Poo German hamburger lover. A total winner for an Indie Film Award, for sure.
It's amazing to me that a dog that acts so much like a cat most of time, can turn into such a begging dog when Micky D's is brought home. What is it that they are spraying on our food that makes these animals go so nuts for fast food? They don't act like that for anything else, except real pizza. I think the only reason for that is the box. Tor knows the box by site. I just a had a taste memory. the smell and taste of a NY//NJ style pizza, there is this smell the fresh pizza makes inside the box. You just can not get that anywhere else. SOme places come very close, but never get that smell of the box.
Alrighty I just got word that I'm not getting that graphics gig :( ....bummer. Seemed like a perfect interview, one and a half hours, brought home all the stuff, and the papers......
I guess I didn't really understand how hard this was going to be. I've interviewed hundreds, and been in many interviews. I'm telling ya, I'm floored that this was a bust. wow.
Tuesday, February 26, 2013
This should be a good episode.... oh my. I'm not sure how this can be on the DVR, but it is. that was a clear sign that I do not understand the new Comcast dvr thing with the new boxes. Not much of a blog entry never the less. There it is.
It's a rainy cold day in the north east. Not enough cold for snow, but just enough for frozen ice pellets. I do hate the cold.....man I really do.
I've re-visited typo3 from the German point of view. Still not working. I mean, it is for what the code says it's should be, but that is light years from where I need to be. To parse a css attached sheet along with an html template. A very tall order it would seem. still in the works however.
Time to print some flyers and get them to the paper before friday....:)
It's a rainy cold day in the north east. Not enough cold for snow, but just enough for frozen ice pellets. I do hate the cold.....man I really do.
I've re-visited typo3 from the German point of view. Still not working. I mean, it is for what the code says it's should be, but that is light years from where I need to be. To parse a css attached sheet along with an html template. A very tall order it would seem. still in the works however.
Time to print some flyers and get them to the paper before friday....:)
I would have said no to the question " can an interview go too well?" About a week ago. But now I'm not so sure. I applied to a good modest part time graphic position, they liked the portfolio and the interview lasted over 1 1/2 hours, I left feeling that it was a no brainer perfect match for them and me. Yet still not even a word. The only thing I can figure is that it went too well somehow, and that scared them off. I don't really understand it. The only possible other thing is that the temp agency is the problem. I feel like I should make a gesture towards them independently. Seriously that is how well the interview went.
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
I'm not sure where the days hours go by. This will be the week of lost hours and time.
I've written the Germans about their horrible instructions. I doubt it will help me too much but I'm at the point that any last hope is rapidly diminishing in understanding the coding minds of the typo3 team.
I am without question mentally
tired.
I've written the Germans about their horrible instructions. I doubt it will help me too much but I'm at the point that any last hope is rapidly diminishing in understanding the coding minds of the typo3 team.
I am without question mentally
tired.
Monday, February 11, 2013
Today is the first Monday back to work for me in a long time. I think I beat this cold running around the house and area. I thought I was sure to get it on Friday but it never took hold. It's 7 am and time to get on outta here, as soon as the 7am furnace blast warms my jeans resting on the radiator. I love toasted clothing.
On tap today, supervision of a carpet being installed and the trimming out of two doors to match the flooring size. I'd have done the doors outside, except for the freezing rain.....dam, I'd better go load up a vacuum too.
it does however look like a great day to head to a topical island " Don, looking directly at you...lol"
On tap today, supervision of a carpet being installed and the trimming out of two doors to match the flooring size. I'd have done the doors outside, except for the freezing rain.....dam, I'd better go load up a vacuum too.
it does however look like a great day to head to a topical island " Don, looking directly at you...lol"
Sunday, February 10, 2013
Right now as I look outside, Im noticing that a tree branch has crashed into the hut roof in the back yard. I'll have to get up there and check on it when it gets warmer. It's going to get warm tomorrow, but also all rainy and not a good day for roof climbing.
On another note, I'm trying to watch one of these twilighty movie thingys, which one I know not. but i tihnk the girl just found out she is preggers with a vampire baby? Is that right? is that what Mtv is dishing out for movies these days?.....oooop, and its' a fast growing one.
Here are some info factoids
- Twilight the movies, "suck"
- I can remember my first sip of beer, but I can not remember my last one at all.
- summer is too short int he north east. "hint hint, Ground Hog, better be right
- Like I said last year, Joe Paterno didn't write those emails, and the NCAA is in trouble
- Mama Celeste pizzas are not as good as they once were.
- I don't understand how these dogs in this movie are talking without moving their mouths.
- Portlandia is the best show on TV, and I missed it on Friday :(
- that wolf boy somehow got his clothes back, as he walks out of the woods....stupid
- I have to work in the rain tomorrow morning....yuk
Why are little white dogs always the barking kind? gawd..... it's as if he almost knows just the correct pitch that cuts into my head. "Dam you Cujo!"...don't make me go down there.
Monday, February 4, 2013
prenote: I find this new "don't say the word gay" TV ad campaign hilarious because the way the a phrase is used these days the most often is more closely related to the actual original definition of the word gay.
GAY: - merry - cheerful - jolly - joyful - blithe - mirthful
Hell if somebody like's fruit loops, who cares..... Lets not climb all over another word and the politically correct use of it.
I attempted to learn all my instructional today. That didn't happen the way I planned. Getting the chance to do the task was the first problem. The day became more filled with to do's than I had planned. Once I did sit down to them, I was confronted with another issue. They were not what I needed. It basically covered everything I figured out on my own, and completely avoided the things I had questions about. I am amazed sometimes at the vast oceans between coders and designers thought processes.
GAY: - merry - cheerful - jolly - joyful - blithe - mirthful
Hell if somebody like's fruit loops, who cares..... Lets not climb all over another word and the politically correct use of it.
I attempted to learn all my instructional today. That didn't happen the way I planned. Getting the chance to do the task was the first problem. The day became more filled with to do's than I had planned. Once I did sit down to them, I was confronted with another issue. They were not what I needed. It basically covered everything I figured out on my own, and completely avoided the things I had questions about. I am amazed sometimes at the vast oceans between coders and designers thought processes.
Wednesday, January 30, 2013
Thursday, January 24, 2013
The Week of Progress
25 tutorials make a choice
I saw on the evening news that I will be snowed in, perfect time to learn boring code. It's too cold outside for much else anyway.
Once the choice is made I'm going to organize the domains and start hunting website hosting customers. IF they need design work for graphics, the studio is plugged into the server and ready to rock. I have two eCommerce shopping cart packages, 8 choices of site designers, chat boards, ftp, email, domain management, and endless graphic design options as well as image and photography. Seems like it's time to start and hit the on switch!
On a side note from my day of picking up scripts and running.
I've realized that it's not the Camp Hill Giant supermarket I hate, as much as I dislike the kind of people who seem to always shop there. There is no bigger collection of picky geezers who do not understand the concept of the "line" the one you "wait" in. Combined with the seemingly endless flaws in the parking lot design make it a true hell on earth between 7:45am and 9pm m-s The only true way to use the store is to get there when the jackasses are still across the street at Starbucks at 7:15amAgain, not the store employee's, except for maybe the old lady at the pharmacy who over the course of four years still looks at me like she has never seen me before in her life with the test questions like when is your birthday or which of these three locations are you familiar with. ( I always found that one scary.) Aside from that, it's the customers. dreadful horrible rude and full of complete bullshit crap.
Wednesday, January 23, 2013
Monday, January 21, 2013
OK, i spent the most part of the day trying to get one walk through that made sense, in my head, on Joomla. I can safely say that I have not found it. It turned into one of those things where I was good to go, and then 1/2 way in, the instructions don't match the diagrams, or I notice they forgot something, ect... I wound up learning about a twitter bootstrap ,whoever names these things has some deep seeded issues. I will go as far to say that almost all cute little internet acronyms bug the crap out of me.
I'm going to go back in as soon as my eyes stop burning. try to make some kind of progress, I hate learning code, and I hate php. I wish I could just focus on the things that I can do well instead of having to learn everything at super speed.
I'm going to go back in as soon as my eyes stop burning. try to make some kind of progress, I hate learning code, and I hate php. I wish I could just focus on the things that I can do well instead of having to learn everything at super speed.
Thursday, January 17, 2013
Food for a depression.
It was a way to make soup, dinner. it was horrible, but it worked.
Now, to my mom's credit that was really just the worst, yet most memorable example of this poor cooking. There are some others that we have recently been taking back to:
- Homemade Beefaroni = elbow noodles, ground chuck browned with onions, mixed together and topped with cold catsup.
- Breakfast dinner = pancakes and eggs for dinner? WHAAA?
- Cream of mushroom helper = everything cream of mushroom. before the 4 fingered hand of hamburger helper, there was make your own helper. used as a base, you can make anything with the fat of Cream of Mushroom.
- Everything "Con Carny" = anything over rice
- English muffin pizza = these actually cost more now to make than a pizza kit,but back in the day before English muffins became $4 a piece, you could use them, old spaghetti sauce and a slice of American cheese to make your own personal sized pizzas.
Wednesday, January 16, 2013
If you need a gun right now, you probably don't need a gun.
This seems to be the topic of the day, so I thought I'd throw in my two cents.
I got the idea to buy a gun as more of a collector than anything. It was after Tomb Raider 2 came out. I had to have that cool side arm. After studying so many disarms in kung fu it seemed like to get the real feel about guns and how to know them and most of all respect them if that time should ever come, I should own one and learn it inside and out. That thought combined with that movie sparked me to go about buying a legal handgun in pa. It took me about a week to nail the exact gun model used in the movie. Kids, this was 2003 and the Google machine wasn't as easy as it is today. videos were still rented from a store and cable TV was static, meaning nothing was on demand. You either watched it when it was on, or you missed it for 4 months.
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| Heckler & Koch USP Match |
The problem with the form you fill out for the back round check is that there are a lot of questions about your health, mental health and or addictions but the police phone call doesn't address those. They only would if somehow the person already shows up as a criminal prior to trying to buy the gun. So if a person has no criminal record but is documented as unsound, they can walk right out with a M15. This is the problem. It's not with gun control laws as much as it is a problem with HIPPA laws that protect a person's medical records over all other things.
Bottom line. There is no reason a person should not have to wait 48 hours for a gun purchase which would allow the proper background checks. If you need a gun right now, you probably don't need a gun.
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
Server tasks for the day:
- fixes PHP settings
- corrected uploader
- installed Joomla 1.5 and 2.5
- fixed gallery software
- moved back up domain to GoDaddy registrar
- updated three sites software
- installed drupal 7.18
- found new gallery themes
- learned the framework install process.
Schools on Lock down in PA
What in the world is going on with all these schools and kids with guns? I'm listening to the news in the back round as I get ready to turn off the main frame for the day. The news is crazy. This has to be the fourth day in a row there were similar stories in PA about problems with local schools and students with violence and or weapons problems.
Monday, January 14, 2013
Quitting smoking with the patch.
I wrote this plan up for some friends a number of years ago because I found that without the information below, even the patch doesn't work to stop the smoker from falling back into the habit. It is some basic ideas that are never addressed when starting the patch. Since the patch costs more than the smokes do, it is a good idea to get yourself ready and make them work for you the first time.
The idea behind it is to give your body the chemical it needs while breaking
the habit of holding, and carrying around the cig itself. you can read about what percent of the
addition is mental, and which part of it is physical but the basic problem is
that most smokers need something to use to calm themselves, look forward to, or
to just plane pass the time with something for the hands to do. Because of all of these factors being
slightly different for all of us, there are some basic guides i have found to
adhere to that will help make the patch work the way it is intended to.
1. The patch itself.
They are costly. more so than the cigarettes themselves. The first thing
is that your body doesn't know the difference between the brand name, or the
generic. I advise you to buy the generic ones. you can also find coupons for
money off the two week course, as compared to the one weeks, which you will
not need. They come in two shapes. find and buy the round ones only. The square ones do not stay on your body as
well. They put them in the drug stores
in bins that showcase the brand names.
compair the prices and look at the boxes carefully to make sure you are
getting the round ones, and that they are the correct step that you are on.
2 Using them
The box says use each step for two weeks.
This is not enough time for a seasoned smoker, or a smoker who is used to strong, non light
smokes. plan on using the step 1 for
double that amount of time. So you will
need two boxes of the two week supplies, but don't buy them all at once. Start with one two week course. Each course comes packed with CD's DVDs and a
whole bunch of crap which is all basically there to justify the size of the
box. One of the most important things is
the time of day you put the patch on.
Water makes the patch glue useless, so does sweat. It is important to put the patch on at the
same time of day each day. Unlike
smoking, which you seem to do whenever you like, the patch needs to have a consistent flow into your skin to break the addiction. whenever you take a shower, try to put the
patch on directly afterwards and try to make it the same time every day. How the patch touches your skin is also of
paramount importance. many people out
the patch on the outside of the arm, in the shoulder area. this is great to show everyone you are on the
patch, but it is the worst place to keep it touching your skin for 24
hours. I have found that the best place
on your body that has the least amount of skin movement is on your torso, under
the arm, directly on the side of your lung.
your arm helps press the patch against the skin, and it is protected
from being knocked off. most people get
a slight skin irritation from the patch.
It is important not to put the patch on the same part of the skin each
day. The way that I got around this was
to switch it each day to the opposite side of the body. After a couple of weeks the skin irritation
does go away, but continue to swtich it form side to side. Do not a take the patch off at night. you literally need to have the patch on 24/7
till you are done to break the physical habit.
After two weeks you need to decide if you want to go one more week on
step 1 or go for 2 weeks. due to the
cost, this is why you only buy the two weeks to start. to be safe I would go for the extra
week. when you switch to step 2, use
step 2 for 4 weeks. After that you are
on step 3. do the two weeks and see if
you even notice the patch anymore. that
will be a good indication as to how many weeks you will need to be on step 4.
Do not cut the patches in half, no not put more than one patch on at the
same time. make sure you have your
supply of patches with you to switch out on time each day. it is so important to make sure you switch to
the new patch at the same time each day.
3. Behavior
The other part of smoking that the patch cant help you with in the mental
part. This is also why nicotine gum is a
bad choice. you do not want to substitute the cig in your hand with gum, or candy, or anything. Do not try to reward yourself for not smoking
with things like candy or anything that reminds yourself that you are not
smoking. Breaking the habit of needing
something in your hands is key.
Being around smokers is the quickest way to fail. You will not be strong enough to be round
smokers till you are on the end of step 3.
All it takes is one little thing to happen, a flat tire, a bad day, and if you are near a smoker, the
temptation to ask for just one smoke will be unstoppable. The smoker will want
you to be like them and they, unknowingly, want you to fail so they feel
better about smoking and not quitting.
You can not be around people smoking period. That one smoke has inside it the power to
undo every bit of progress you have made, and waste all the money and time you
have put into quitting. It will taste
like shit and you will feel horrible about doing it afterwards. Do not smoke while the patch is on you. you will get sick instantly. Do not even make it an option. you will be able to join your smoking friends
when you are free of this, and you will not even be close to being tempted by
them because the smell of the cig at that point will smell so horrible you will truly not be able to understand how you could stomach it to begin with.
Each day you put the patch on, consider it a win for you. cherish it.
feel proud about it. look forward
to that moment. each time you put it on,
it is proof that you are taking back your health and your body. In 7 days you will notice that you can breath
again. In 14 days you will notice that
food tastes good again. You will be
amazed that you can run and not be winded.
Take each one of these things and put them on the wall of progress.
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